i probably can’t convey this eloquently, but there is a beautiful truth i found in exodus.
god instructs moses to bring the children of israel out of egypt. moses and god squabble back and forth, moses contends he is unworthy etc., and then god throws out the, “i am” answer. you’d think that would end the conversation, how can you argue with that? but moses persists.
when moses and aaron finally man up to go to pharaoh, they simply request to be let go for a feast (chapter 5). feasts last for three days. i don’t quite understand if they were merely asking for three days of freedom or if that implied perpetual freedom after.
out of apprehension of our own inadequacy or the fear that god wont show up for some reason-- i wonder what moses’ intentions were when god called him clearly to so much more. moses cowardly asks for only three days when god envisioned a lifetime of freedom for the children of israel.
i have to read the text closer. but what i got from it is that god has really big plans for us, and we settle far too easily. so are the setbacks (i.e. having frogs and gnats literally in every square inch of their personal space) a result of our unfaithfulness? or are they worked into the plan because god had plans to affect a lot more people (i.e. phararoh and his hardened heart or the magicians who recognized the finger of god) through the plagues and setbacks?
i’ve had a lot of encouragement in what i have set out to do to follow a vision i feel god has given me. i’ve been blessed with really great people in my life who offer gratification freely and reassure the fact that you can trust god. if he calls you to something, he will follow through. i was scared of rejection and inadequacy. even though its only the beginning, i hope that this idea of intentional community will grow and i will be able to take more steps towards the type of intense community i long for. i see that god will see me through. and i should continue to take scary steps. amen.
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