allow me to introduce myself.

this is who i am at 1:47 am on thursday, july 10th when i don’t feel like sleeping.
posted now, because i don’t have internet.
i believe in dreams. i believe in letting them be known. not only to others, but to yourself. i want to learn how to play the piano. i want to learn how to take excellent pictures. i want to see 1000 places before i die. i’m serious about changing the world. i want to transcribe the whole bible. i struggle with fully grasping what i mean to god. i don’t like justify alignment. i want to live in a community house. even when i’m married. i cry at weddings. i’ve successfully worn heels once in my life. i’ve also only tried once. i want my wedding to be a huge party. with a photo booth as my sole wedding gift, so i can have it at the wedding and then have it stationed at my front door. with cork board filling the hallway. i want to shop at thrift stores to furnish the rest of my house. i want to play monopoly to its completion. i love maps. i easily get distracted. one time i told a boy i was allergic to chap stick so he wouldn’t kiss me. i don’t understand hyphens at the end of a line. i want to be in africa this time next year. to take a sabbatical from my life right now and catch up on a lot of reading. to get asked to dance. i still have hopes for a garden in my backyard. at least some herbs in my kitchen window pots. i want vines covering my house and garden gate. i’m literal and concrete when communicating. abrupt and harsh. i take advantage of people. of god. i’ve gotten in trouble with the cops because of water balloons three many more times than a average person should. i miss younglife camps. i want to mean what my mentor means to me to someone else someday. i want to wakeboard like a pro. i want to own everything in williams & sonoma. i like “&s.” i like lists. punctuation. apologetics. habakkuk 1:5. i love meeting new people. love being at summit. but i’m learning that summit isn’t the only one who’s gotten it right. and that’s healthy for me, being in a hunter bubble my whole christian life. i want to ride a giraffe. i believe love is everything it’s cracked up to be. and i’ll see the love i give returned to me. wrinkle release saves my life. kim mcmanus is a new hero. i missed my long hair today. swings make me dizzy. my favorite park is seaworld. i can’t remember the last time i’ve been. i like working out details. i live in a world of possibilities. it takes longer for me to clean my room than to mess it up again. i’m trying to grow up. and down. simultaneously.
i believe impossibilities are god's opportunities. i believe in taking steps in order that the cliche things i may say are genuinely not cliche, but lived out.

i’m was up far too late.