woe is me.

i think i might move back to florida. i think that i'm excited about it. you know whats hard... i'm so torn at being present here and living in the past. i want so bad to plant my feet and love a city, but also don't want to lose past relationships. i'm so bad at keeping in touch, mostly default to, 'out of sight, out of mind.' but i geniunely care about the people in orlando and other folks from my past living in different cities. its like if i fully choose to love this city, it would leave no room for past people. and even so, its hard when you're not present to really maintain that long-distance and not be able to love them in the everyday. i have no excuse because for whatever reason i havent felt like i ever wanted to invest in atlanta. i miss my community in orlando. i miss letting myself be loved and loving people.